Was wanting to send good morning text to W but decided to come here instead. Yesterday was pretty quiet. She sent a "morning!" text and that was last communication. Definetly trying to figure out how much space to give her. I have told myself that i am not going to initiate contact going forward. At least until things get a better.
On the bright side she has nit brought up her filing for divorce since we spend that night together. I am a bit mixed up inside. She has told me several times that she wants to end things but i keep trying. She starts to come around and the she is gone again. In the last letter she said tried to find those feelings for me again because she knows how much pain i am in and she wants to take it away but inside she realizes that this is not what she needs for herself.
Simetimes i feel like i should just let her go and be done but then i think about how good it feels to be with her and how i want that feeling back. Just want to do right by her too. Maybe my life, my situation is not right for her and i should show her how much i love her by letting her go.
Ok comments / 2x4s?
M-45 W-44 2D - 11&13 2SS - 11&17 Married 10/10/10 Bomb 3/5/12 Moved 5 houses away 4/20/12 Back together 9/12 Seperated 6/13 Divorce Final 11/13/13
