IB, Just checking on you this morning. How are you doing?
What you are feeling is very normal and part of the grieving process. It's okay to let those feelings out. Get out there and beat a pillow to death, taking up kick boxing or long walks and shouting to the heavens. You need to physically release all of this in a way that will help you. You do not need to put on a brave and happy face each and every day of your life. We all show our feelings each and every day and some are more painful than others and believe me when I say this, I don't see anyone with the happy and brave face each and every day.
Give yourself the gift of time to work through things. You've not been on your own very long and now that your children are off on their own, your full focus has now turned back on to you and that's why you are now truly experiencing the pain of grieving. Don't be so hard on yourself. Cry when you need to cry, vent when you need to vent. We are here to help you any way that we can.
I'm sending positive thoughts your way today. Please let us know how you are doing.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
