Bad night last night. Not much sleep, 1 W came back from friends house and carried on as normal. Feelin kinda lost this morning and and rly havin to motivate myself to go to work.
Feel like I need a break from it all to keep my head but not sure it wld be such a good idea just yet.
W stated she will need lots of help with move etc as the house she is going to is a mess. I don't really want to help the way I feel at the moment but if I love her I shld help.
Keep thinkn about my S and not being able to tuck him in bed everynight and see him everyday. All stuff I suppose u take for granted when they're at home. Eldest just gone to uni last week so it really will be quiet around here.
Trying hard not to blame myself after stuff she's said and keep analysing sitch for how I cld have done things differently. I know is shldnt so need to snap out.
