I just read all of your threads, well most of it anyway, that took a while:) It's ok I have lots of free time. Anyway, I thought I would pose an interesting question. I am in no way qualified to give advice especially in my situation, but I read a quote the other day that rang home with me.
"Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says: 'I need you because I love you.'"
Which camp are you in?
I will admit that in the beginning it was probably the immature kind. Now I know it's the mature kind. It hurts much worse.