I'm back, on my own.

[canadianMrs.]

I haven't been here for awhile. I feel like I go in cycles of sadness, anger, and then at peace/acceptance. Although I think each time I feel sad or angry I have an "ahha" moment/learn something that makes the next turn shorter and feel better longer. I had been doing really well for months, but maybe now its really sinking in? Plus I'm working full time now, and do feel resentment over how much I have on my plate while H lives a life mostly for himself.
One thing I am struggling with is this weekend; Its Canadian Thanksgiving & H has the kids. They are going to the in-laws Sat-Sun. I have been invited for the dinner Sat. night by both H and his parents. I don't know what to do. I want to see my BIL, SIL & nieces who I am close with (they have been so supportive of me but they live far enough that I don't see them often). However I know it will hurt when its time for me to leave when everyone else is staying the night. I'm trying to figure out what will hurt less in the long run, going or not.