"I forgave her too easily, almost as if I was saying to her (do what you want - just don't leave me)"
That's not what forgiveness is.
Forgiveness is somthing that is given without expecting something in return. If you truly forgave your W, then you leave it at that. It's not a sign of weakness. Giving forgiveness without expecting change or for the person to feel remorse or apologetic is the strongest and most unselfish thing you can give to someone.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.