Thanks you all - bottom line is I am grieving and it is painful and ugly and it has to get out. The more I stuff and act "as if" the worse it gets. My days are FULL of responsibilities - work, family, friends, etc. And I have to put up the brave face front constantly just to get through....The truth is - I am not brave. I am broken and I'm scared because I don't know what it will take to "fix" me. I have never in my life felt as though I was weak - I've always felt resilient and that I was good at making the best out of any situation. Those skills are sadly gone right now and I have to find a different way....


M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time