My story, my progress, my hope

[Tinman]

Thanks crazyville! That is what i struggle with, knowing that my seperation is more about outside influences than anything else. Friday ans saturday were pretty good. She text me a few times. I tried to let her lead. Sat am she said she was out for a walk and if i happen to be outside she would stop and chat. So i actually walked her home and we talked a little and kissed a few times. It was nice. She said she felt so much better without felling the pressure. We even talked about fall break and i suggested that we go on a trip for a few days and she liked that.
Sunday was a bit of a set back. She text me in am and i went down to see her for few min and had a nice talk. She said maybe she would see me later and then i asked if it would be ok if my girls came down and said hello. She said maybe and we left it at that.

Well last night i called to see how she was doing and she said she did not want to see my girls as it made things harder and she felt pressure again. I told her that was fine and i would keep kids completely out of it and i told her i understood.

So now i need to back off and let her be one to initiate contact. I did not realize seeing my kids would have such an impact on her but now i know better. Maybe i should have know. I know she loves my girls and they love her but she does not want them to look toward her as thier replacement mother.

Sat night i went out with kids and friend to an outdoor concert. It was nice. It was part of a single parent group so i kind of did not want to be there and felt a little like i was on the menu. Still had fun and nice to hang out with friend.