Something I forgot to mention that I am wondering about-- When H was changing my things in the car he did ask if I had checked the oil. I responded that isn't that a guy thing? He said well you need to find a guy to do it. I responded with, "why do you always say things like that?" Basically he has a history of being very very jealous. In fact, a sure fire way to get his attention is for someone else to pay attention to me. To be honest, I would never use that against him but it is what it is. Do you think that was him feeling me out? Like wondering if I was talking to someone else? In the past, he has accused me of cheating or asked if I was talking to someone online that sort of thing. I never have and have been very honest and forthright about it. Our relationship has been so hard for so long that the thought of even dealing with another one just makes my head spin. I seriously don't think my sanity could stand it.
One other issue I have is that sometimes I read these threads and get so suspicious about him having OW. I really do not believe he is seeing anyone. There are several things that make me think that. Just like his leaving his phone sitting here all day long. I even answered it. He has no problems with that. There are lots of things but honestly, I don't know and I have enough of a trust issue as far as he is concerned to say that it could be. Although, at this point, I don't know why he would continue to lie. So sometimes, in some ways, I think that aspect of this forum is not great. It really does cause me to have doubts when otherwise, I don't have many. Anyone else felt that way?
