My thoughts- Get a grip on yourself. You have a tremendous opportunity. Your H is still living at home. I would give anything to be in your shoes! Make it a place he wants to be. Don't waste it. Seriously. Get DR. Read it. You can start changing your relationship by tonight if that is what you CHOOSE to do! I do not mean to sound harsh but from what you are saying there is little time to waste. You are pushing your husband away with almost every action. When you change how you act then he changes how he reacts and almost immediately the situation begins to change. Then you have to keep the changes up. Don't think oh we had a good day then slip right back to your same smothering behavior. It is REALLY that simple or hard. Once you start going through the motions of doing things differently then you can begin to think about your motivation for the things you do and really make a difference fundamentally in yourself. Keep posting. And my for myself I now have a new rule. Any time I am mad or upset I try to not react for at least 24 hours. It is helping. Really a different day normally gives me a different perspective.
