I guess I just have to accept that he thinks everything is my fault. I lost it and started crying again and he thinks I was trying to make a scene in front of the kids and I was absolutely not wanting that. I told him I just want the pain to go away and he said just except it. It's tearing me apart I have cried every day for three weeks now! How do I control this ? I can't keep doing this! He says this all started two years ago when I wrote a check that bounced. He said it broke down to years! I am sorry about it to this day and honestly did not do it on purpose but he won't listen to me. Why would this still be an issue?!! I said if things are not better by November I'm moving out I can't live like this, I feel like in dying inside, I wish he knew I really do not want to cause anymore problems I just want everything to be good!!
