I understand how uncomfortable it is but I'd say if you can't stand it just leave the room and leave her alone. Go for a walk. Anything, but give her some space. If she wants to talk, she'll initiate and then you can go for it. JMO.
Thanks A. This is what I've been doing. I guess there really isn't any other good option. We've both always been kind of quiet, even back in our good times. We've always had a good connection though, even during much of this mess, and I'd like to keep that, which is why I dislike the days long silence.
Sometimes she's more talkative than others. This weekend just seemed extra bad for her. She's a different person around others than she is with me now. I've noticed new facial expressions and laughs; ones that she never had before. More cussing now too. She's definitely searching for her identity. Meanwhile, I'm still here for her. For now anyway.
I'm planning to see an IC next week. I admit I need more help here.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
