I don't think you have a thing to be embarrassed about. And one day you will be grateful this all happened because it led you to the path you were meant to find to become the person you were meant to be.
It's okay to grieve the person he was, but remember that life is short and you don't want to waste too much time on him. Get on out there and make this all about YOU!!!
Me 55 H 49 Married 21 years No kids bomb 5/09 filed 7/09 divorced and moving forward 5/10