Second, the reason why you're in this same situation is that you haven't detached and changed yourself for the better. You still have low self-esteem problems and depend on your XW for happiness.
Move on. That's the only way you have a shot at getting your W back.
Bond, do you think that moving on means meeting women, having sex or just flirting.
Ive spent nearly half of my life with her.Well, I guess I'm a db failure. Gal'ing, friends, family, therapy, meds, - nothing dulled the pain. The D is final. There is OM too. Strange... I hate her now, but still love her and wish our family was together. Regrets and sadness still eat away at my soul... Tried to fake it, staying positive-- but detachment seemed impossible. She is gone- I feel lost. I made such progress but the jealousy caused backsliding-- she flaunted the om purposely like a cold calloused monster. What now- the future seems so desolate. I'm trying to move in... I feel like I'm dead inside, but the pain reminds me that I'm still here. Maybe someday she'll regret being such a whore and destroying our family.
(F.K.A. Broken422)
US 40's M 17,T 19 2 BOYS 13,16 Divorced 4/2012 11/2011 W SAID SHE WANTS D
"When it is dark enough,you can see the stars"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Forrest loved Jenny so much. She was confused young woman, tried drugs, many male partners and he never stopped loving her. He was a war hero and a very good runner, as you are
She was coming back to him many times and he always accepted her.
Watch the movie again in this difficult moment. I am going to download it this evening and will offer my ex to watch it together
Do you remember Count Monte Christo - betrayed by his friend and his fiancee. He lost everything. And he won them back after 17 years.
I'm officially finished. Anyone capable of intentionally hurting me like my x doesn't deserve my love. She has actually disgusted me & our children beyond measurement. I've lost respect for her.... It isn't possible to truly love someone that you don't respect. I sold my ring, took down most of the photos, threw away cards and letters. all done- its a relief... now i'll move on. honestly, i wouldn't take her back if she begged. I have seen the light-Perhaps she was more of an unhealthy addiction the last couple of years. The Boys told me that they don't want her to come home... That I'm a better Mom & Dad -- it's nice to be validated, but sad that it is coming from the children. She is mentally ill & can't see it.... Family , friends & neighbors... We all see it. She is a monster now - a shell of the woman I married 17 yrs ago. Reduced to a selfish shallow gutter whore. So- my job now is to try to get the divorce decree amended... The kids are will tell a judge, lawyers the same thing.... They want to remain in our home with me... She can visit & I'll offer her a buy-out of the equity. There are millions of women who would appreciate me. Additionally- I've learned from past / I won't repeat the same mistakes with communication .
(F.K.A. Broken422)
US 40's M 17,T 19 2 BOYS 13,16 Divorced 4/2012 11/2011 W SAID SHE WANTS D
"When it is dark enough,you can see the stars"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
Her parents , uncles, maternal grandmother & great grandmother were mentally ill. I've had enough of her flaunting her OM around ... It is embarrassing for the children & to me. She has been callous and mean during every interaction in the last few weeks.... I'm walking away. It isn't healthy to continue to yearn for a dead relationship --- if she has feelings or regrets someday, then that will be her loss. When I look at her, I can't imagine holding her in my arms again... She is tainted and dirty and I wouldn't trust her again. Maybe the meds have allowed me to detach finally and look at this whe sitch objectively and not emotionally. She is a bad person and a bad mother... We are probably better off without her.
(F.K.A. Broken422)
US 40's M 17,T 19 2 BOYS 13,16 Divorced 4/2012 11/2011 W SAID SHE WANTS D
"When it is dark enough,you can see the stars"- Ralph Waldo Emerson
