Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

Today was a little bit better. He wasn't quite so dismissive at S8's soccer game. It's interesting, there is another couple there who I sense is separated too... the dad arrives separately and they don't sit together or talk much.

When we got back I got to work on the garage. It had become a huge mess, and there's still stuff in there that never got organized from our move. It reminded me of how awful our move was. I did all the packing that I could and H did the rest - but he didn't organize anything. For instance, I found my H's car registration from 2011 stashed in a pile of junk. So I have a lot of built up resentment about the mess and lack of organization.

I asked H to help and he said he would but wasn't interested in "working as a team"... then I heard him ask S8 if he wanted to go to the neighbor's house - yes THAT neighbor - and I went outside to work. I guess S8 said no because neighbor and her 2 girls came over here (they are the same ages as my kids). N did not come outside to say hello to me; my H told me that the girls had come for a visit after they left. I still don't think anything's "going on" but this friendship irks me. It would be one thing if the 4 of us were friends but that's not the case. Boy was I annoyed to hear that they were going to socialize while I was outside in the heat hauling boxes.

After they left H came out to help - he hauled boxes into the house for a while. I just left his tools in a pile outside the garage for him to organize. He said he'd do it. Now I know why I get so annoyed when he doesn't help - Acts of Service is one of my LL... I know I feel good when he pitches in but it doesn't happen all that often :-(. I think if he knew how much it meant to me he might try harder.