Very emotional...last day in what was our family home. I am 2.5 years past bomb - and now divorced 18 months post divorce. It absolutely STILL hurts...such profound loss. I'm embarrassed...no matter what my next move is - it's a step down. I can't put icing on this - it's not what it could have been.

Please don't get me wrong - XH is just crazy messed up and I don't want that in my life. But I still feel such grief from the loss of the man he was.

I feel like a broken, empty shell of a person....STUCK!!! I know I will get through it - but it completely [censored]!


M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time