Zoo -- I'm sorry you feel like booking a trip to Zooland. I think it's great that you're aware of what's going on for you inside -- the ASSumptions and fears. You're doing a great job of journalling all of that, processing it without involving h.
Just some positive reinforcement! What are your next steps to alleviate some of this stress on you?
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.