O Tori its so much simpler than I think, isn't it? I just had to mirror what he'd written!
Instead I was my usual Tumbling friendly self. There's a restaurant in the place where I live (I'm still in our home) that he loves and hasn't been there since June with me (we used to go at least once/week). So I made a bold move but with absolutely no expectations, I promise.
- Thanks for the update. If you fancy a xxxx before you go, it would be good to see you x
I don't think that's pressure. I'm up for it if he fancies it, tis all. Not fussed either way.
Now to something else. Is this working? I've noticed if I text "night, night h x", he texts right back. Would you say this is something that works, seeing as when he came back from his trip he was on radio silence?
There are currently no financial/admin matters to discuss so no reason to phone or see each other this week. There will be some when he comes back tho.
I am aware that I do not want to go round the same loop de loop again. When we last saw each other for the first time in a year, he said he wanted to move home and make things right between us. He acknowledged we had a lot of talking to do and that there would be no more sweeping it under the carpet. I don't know what happened when he came back from his trip that stopped this from happening but I remain happy to try to rebuild our marriage but if he wants out then I'm done.
Right now I don't know what he wants and will not know until we see each other and that's fine as I am GAL and reclaiming my Self. I just want to make sure that this time I focus more on what I want and instead of just being grateful that he's hanging out with me, I would like to agree with him how we move from here to reconciling, him moving home and onwards.
Yes, I know I'm jumping far too ahead but I just want to note it here whilst my mind is clear to remind me to focus on my needs as well.
On the radio today I heard the Eagles, Take It Easy There's a couple of lines in it relevant to DB and MLC
Take It easy, take it easy Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy Lighten up while you still can don't even try to understand Just find a place to make your stand and take it easy
So that's me today.
O and I had a flash realisation as to why he moved out again at the end of October 2011. I will write about it in another post.
