best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

GKM,

I am smiling as I type. In the back of my mind I knew what you would say. The only thing I see that might come out of it, if it is out, is that I could show her that it doesn't affect me. But I realize the only person I need to show anything to right now is myself. Don't worry about coming off as harsh. Deep down I know what the right play is here, just need a kick in the butt sometimes. Thank you

And I do stay extremely busy. Been rock climbing alot, working on my house, and trying to be a great dad. Thanks for the pool idea. There has been a few nights where I didn't have much to do, and I am not big on just sitting at a bar. Too much drama.

Honestly, no sinking feeling in the gut, but it does feel like there is a knife sticking out of my back. Thanks again!