I am so glad to hear you stronger and stronger every time i read your posts. It is such an awesome feeling - and i don't use that word very often
i did see you had posted your goals on the goals thread. I know i haven't done a great job there recently, but am probably "gathering" energy right now
so meanwhile, keep on - and about the waves - i have them too - all the time and here's what helps me the most:
you can't stop them, you can't evade them and you can't pretend they are not there. The best thing is to just observe, as in
"oh interesting, here i go again feeling it very strongly. wonder how long this round will last. I know it won't be for always because the other day i felt great, so I will just look forward to when i feel great again"
the turning point for me was when someone told me what accuray had posted - that his IC had said that the frequency of the dips reduces first before the intensity of the feelings gets less. so when i realized that, it really helped me not to feel that i wasn't making any progress.
it will take the time that it will take, sweet friend and that's all there is to it. so the sooner we accept and allow for that, the better we'll feel about having it at all
so keep on keeping on - you are doing just amazing.
how is the therapy going, btw - i've been wanting to ask
also - i had that same thing with feeling like h sensed when i was more vulnerable and it was uncanny how he seemed to hit me harder with stuff when i was in that state.
but i think what is really going on is that when we feel more vulnerable, everything comes harder at us. that too will fade with time
(((((((( ))))))))) zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
