Keep breathing...

[mamabird]

More update:
Had to leave S6's soccer game early today. After driving all over the world today and then coming to the game only to be met with a cold shoulder attitude, my patience was pretty thin. Plus in S6's level of soccer it's not taken too seriously and both the ref and coach seemed like they had no idea what they were doing. Especially the ref.

So I left at halftime. It probably was kind of immature to just walk away, but I could feel my blood starting to boil and I needed to get out of there. Now I understand a little why my H does that.

I got home and dishes were not done. This was now about 6 hours after H said he would do them. I had to make dinner so I washed up myself, cursing all the while, but H was not home so I could do this without having a bad attitude in front of him. I was so mad that I actually cleaned and scrubbed the grill on our stove. Who knows why I even bothered to look under there, but it needed cleaning! Helpful hint ladies (and men): clean when you're mad. It's way more enjoyable that way.

By the time H got home, I had calmed down enough to not be mad. He said he really was going to do the dishes... I didn't say anything or yell at him, he just said it, and all I could do was look at him as if to say, "Well, after 6 hours went by I figured you weren't going to." But I told him he could clean up after our dinner and he did so quite willingly. I told him thank you.

Bit of a side note, I can hear party noise coming from our neighbor's house - that party we had to back out of - making me a little sad :-(. My little room faces that side of the house and there is kind of nowhere else for me to go. I'll need to find something on TV so I don't have to listen to everyone whoopin and hollerin over there.

Anyway, I was proud of myself for not getting mad at him like I normally would have ... my dad was over and his comment was that H was punishing himself as much as he was punishing me. I'm tired of feeling like an unappreciated cook, maid and chauffeur, that's for sure.