MLC or Depression? I need help to survive crisis

[summersnow]

Thanks, unbidden. That's interesting. I don't think he will go with me for a while. His mind is no trial and just set a goal to D. I know he is not flexible person, he always thinks he is right.

Maybe many people encounter the feeling and wonder if the marriage is worth saving. I don't know...

Today, I started Zumba. I finally found something I can make laugh and enjoy by myself. H and I have done so many things together so everytime I restart something I enjoyed before remind me the time of "us".

I now really don't mind if he has EA or PA. I really don't. I just want to protect me and 3 dogs lives. He is the one who wants to live w/o me. He is the one who started to stay different place. He is the one who fall out love. He is the one who wants to restart his life.

So my opinion is he is the one who should leave, not us.
He thinks he is perfectionist but it does not mean he can do whatever he want to get "his world". He is now about to get rid of us in order to make life as he wants, "perfect".

To me, it is not perfectionism but is just selfish. He now complains as everything is someone's fault, and make himself good person.

I know today I am in "angry" mood.