Yes I'm unsure of exactly what it means. I'm trying to meditate for at least several minutes each day. Most of the time I am able to reset myself for at least awhile.
So overall this weekend my sich has been tugging at my gut, so I've been working harder for myself. Spending more time trying to meditate brirfly several times the past day or so, exploring why I am how I am and ways to accept / overcome to be who I want (starting to peel layers - no clear answers yet though), and playing with the kiddos. At least a pay off has been this, D11 said earlier, "Dont tell mom, but you're more fun than she is. You actually take us places and do stuff with us.". That of course warmed my heart. Bad news, D11 wanted to call good old's mom later on. I didn't care and kept my distance as I didn't want to be involved. So after the call D11 tells me that she just got a speeding ticket. Nice! Time to breathe in all my emotions and exhale them wishing fortune to everyone around the world. And then I'm going to enjoy ShrekTales with miss, drink a glass of wine, read some Pema (Things Fall Apart), and probably another glass of wine.
