Basically I just said, I think he is over there with his head up his A. lol It was childish but I did feel a little better. I'm 100% certain that it was repeated. Ugh.
Oh well. Nothing I can do about it now. I did want to tell you that after I started reading that Dobson book, I really do think in my case I have a respect problem. I also think that this is likely more common with women. Basically, just that I had convinced myself that H would or wouldn't like something and I always knew how he would react that in the process I really did lose myself. Therefor, every single time I gave in or did something differently not because I wanted to but because I thought that was what "he would want" that I disrespected myself and made it okay for him to disrespect me as well. If that made any sense? Now though, it does me no good to just figure it out I have to follow through. Put my money where my mouth is so to speak. Me and my mouth. But seriously, it's time to put up AND shut up! lol I have to let go and give it to God cause otherwise it is going to kill me.
