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[Wendylon]

I'm so stupid. Really. I continue to do exactly what I know I should not!!! I need to super glue my lips together or something.

Hi MKB,

I could have said that verbatim. I get really annoyed with myself as I notice myself say things that I should know are only going to make the sitch worse. Then again, we are noticing it about ourselves. That has to mean that at some point, we'll catch ourselves just before we're about to go down a cheeseless tunnel once again and inhibit.

Unfortunately, I don't have any great advice except to say that I find reading your sitch both painful because I can so relate to how you're feeling and reassuring because it makes me feel that many of us are probably in the same boat and that we can get strength from each other.

Like you, I sometimes wonder if my behaviour is backfiring as opposed to moving things forward. Like you, I feel v anxious at times (well, most of the time!).

I have to say though that overall I feel that you're doing great and I feel lots of admiration for you.

I look forward to hearing more from you. What did you say that you wish you hadn't? I'm dying to say, "Whatever!", the next time my h gives some stupid account of his whereabouts. I know that won't help though.

Good luck,
Wendy