That 2X4 really went to the head... But, you are right, she is just keeping tabs on where I am standing.
For what has happen in the last 2 months, I would say we will not have any contact for another 2 weeks. It is up to me to stop this madness, for as much as I enjoy her presence and the LM, it is not going to go anywhere.
Detachment was doing wonders for me, not doing anything was actually doing a lot. For the most part it was XW looking for me after a while, I have to keep detaching and not jump into the same mistakes I am making when I see her. A friend of mine told she will be my demise if I don't keep healthy boundaries around her. As of right now I need to settle down, and not jump into making any boundaries which I will not follow.
I will continue working on my self, and ask the Lord for that wisdom I desperatly need. One thing I have notice, is that I do not feel the pain as much, and I am accepting day by day as it comes. I do miss my family and pray for them daily, but the pain is bearable now, just the co-depency is still very strong.
