3 years aftet D-Day and i finally registet

[Am I Too Late]

Meeting with the realty investor later this morning to see about getting cash out and sell or lease the property. Geez, i should have done this 2 to 3 years ago, but my thinking was ONLY about saving our marriage and family.

I let her know on Wednesday about a cub scout trip to a local pumpkin farm with all the kids and she feels the other scout moms have something against her.

Big deal. I am going because it is for my boy to have a good time.

I need to learn how to detach

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

I was Praying and Hoping that time would have allowed her to see things in a different light, but even moderate drinking for a relapsed ex-recovering alcoholic clouds the thinking and judgment functions.

That can no longer be my problem.

I still am undecided about the, ..... What If, ..... What if she changes her mind and gets back to AA recovery.

She was my ideal vision of a wife and mother from 2001 to 2007/2008.

I can not afford to sit back and wait any longer, but if that still can be a reality, i would love to start fresh with boundaries and openness and honesty. She WAS that way prior to her mom getting sick and dying.

I am still reading the DR book, 1st the chapters most significant to my current situation and then i will start and read it again.

I just finished meeting with the real estate investor and he will get back to me next week.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

Finished the roofing job and got paid and then spent the afternoon with my son at a local pumpkin farm with some of his friends.

I wish i had some help and advice.

[albamarie]

am I too late - Hi, I read over your thread today - You do such a great job at answering your own questions.

Your thread is full of your own thinking and planning, then your reflect on how your decisions may affect your future with w:
I still am undecided about the, ..... What If, ..... What if she changes her mind and gets back to AA recovery.

I do the same thing, it can really hold you back to the point of regret. Keep moving forward, do what you feel is right. Life doesn't stay still for anyone.

You sound like an awesome dad, that is were your decision making comes from instinctively, for him. Stay on track for your son!

Maybe reread your own thoughts...see clearly that you may already have your answers, it's just a scary step forward. If your w one day wants to make the changes in her, I'm sure she will have your number to come find you!

A pumpkin farm sounds fun...hope my d18 thinks so

[Am I Too Late]

Thank you for the kind words DawnMarie. I so badly wanted to leave No Stone Unturned in regards to keeping our marriage and family together, but it is only one sided efforts.

The answers may all seem obvious, but i still remember the reality of how much she previously loved me and felt adored by me too.

This morning i am with my son watching his karate class and have not heard from my wife since her shortened visit this past Wednesday evening.

Too bad for our son, but even more so her loss. She will never regain these lost moments of time watching our boy grow up and develop into a caring compassionate and moral young man.

I wish you well in your situation.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

I seem to possibly reaching for the acceptance point of the 5 stages of grief, because for the 1st time in the 3years, my mind is not swimming with thoughts on joe and why this all happened and how and what can i do to repair our marriage and family.

As long as my son is enjoying youthful life and seems adjusted well emotionally, then i can continue positive steps forward.

I will not contact her. She will need to contact me to see our son. I have tried too hard to attempt to get her to learn to act like a mother.

What a shameful existence and poor example she lives for.

When she 1st got back on touch, after not talking to, or visiting her own son, she agreed that parenting counseling sounded like a good idea. I will hold her to that commitment before she can have unsupervised visits with him.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

Acceptance [censored].

Dang, i am enjoying playing with Legos with my 9 1/2 year old son and i am triggered about how and why my wife, and his ma-ma is not here to share in his fun.

I need help to get through this.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

Acceptance S U C K S.

To heck with the word filter censor.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

Wish i had some sort of mentor for support on following through with what i should be doing.

I know, Get A Life., or GAL.

My life is totally devoted to my son. Everything i have to do, he has to go and do with me.

I played more Legos with him on the living room floor with him tonight.

Ed

[Am I Too Late]

Getting my son ready for school on a couple of minutes.

His ma-ma has not made contact since her visit last Wednesday night. I have mixed emotions about that.

He needs consistency in a visitation schedule, but longer absences do not seem to bother him and he does not bring her up at all.

Lets see if she shows up at his karate lesson tonight.

I do wonder why i have such limited response on my situation though.

Ed



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