sometimes i even get a bit scared at how detached i am becoming. does that make any sense?

Yes and it's OK.

Traveling into the unknown is always a bit scary.

But look deeper, is it scared or just anticipation of a life you haven't imagined.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss