Last night was the worst night of my life since this started. H left for his weekend "away", I said have a great weekend and that was that. Had fun playing some games and reading book with my daughter before she went to bed. A friend popped over after D was in bed. Just chit chatting and all of a sudden I couldn't see and nearly passed out. That began an hour and half long anxiety attack like I've never had before. I thought I was having a heart attack. My friend stayed and also called my sister who called my husband. I was scared for someone to call him thinking I was interfering and I was scared not to because if something was wrong my daughter is home alone. He called my friend but didn't say much just "yeah" and that I need to eat something. My friend asked if he was going to come home for Olivia because she couldn't stay all night as her H needed their car to go to work at 3am. He said he was drinking and that was that. He didn't call back at all or say anything else. I eventually fell asleep in bed with my daughter and am not feeling as panicked this morning. Don't know what to think of his reaction. Feels like he truly does not care about me or our daughter at all. Is this normal WAS or MLC behavior, feel like I need to give up but don't want to. But can't go through that again.
