I can certainly identify with all of the above feelings. As I we reading through your thread for the second time, I put the "do something different" thinking with the feelings I was connecting with on your post. BAM Something hit me.
Maybe what would help me is changing the "land" instead of wading waist deep in "Waterland", what if I made Waterland the good side. Like a water park.. thats fun! Now when I am outside Waterland, it is when I am at my lowest. Now I have a REASON to go back to the fun place.
Rather than "glamorizing" the bad zone with its own name, complete with twisted drama, I give Waterland all the attention, the fun, centered, focused FABULOUS land it is!!
Just a differnt thought that may help back away from the drama!
