Going home

[needgrace]

Time for a new thread.

This morning I felt like my old self, happy, free and light. I do not think I have felt that way since this started, even when i have been happy there has always been a nagging heaviness in my heart, a catch in my throat. This morning felt amazing..

and it showed me that I and all of us here will get through this to better days, no matter what...

we are on our way home to ourselves..

i have also started seeing my STBXW and my M more realistically.. and realize that there are things that I want in my next R that were not in my M. that is such a strange feeling for me bc i truly loved my M..

sometimes i even get a bit scared at how detached i am becoming. does that make any sense?

i know that my feelings will not be consistent... i am sure that there will be more waves... but i believe that i will feel this way more and more

I told my SIL last week that I still hurt at times but I would not go back to where i was before this started.. i like the changes in me too much.