I have been documenting things since this started.
Her family does like me. Her closest family members (dad and both sets of grandparents) have called me after she told them we were seperating. Perhaps they were looking for details and a juicy story, which they did not get. From me anyway. They said I was "family", they hoped we could work things out, W must be going thru alot, could they do anything for me, call them anytime if needed. It was touching as I did not expect that.
I just told them I appreciate them being there. That I too hoped we could work things out. W wants space and I'm giving it to her. I want her to be happy.
I did not and have not reached out to them. It has crossed my mind in a weak moment or two. To ask what is she thinking now. Does she have plans for a D? Sometimes I just want some insider info. As I'm certain she does not want to work on us, but she has not mentioned a D.
All of her mail is still coming to my house. Her checking and savings acct is still the joint accts we shared from our home town. I have the accts that we started in our new city.
I've become more detached. It feels good. Empowering.
W stayed over at my house last night. I didn't get in till 10:00pm bc of travel for work. She had to leave at 5:00am for travel. It was what she came up with to solve the logistics of child care. I thanked God for the gift of having my family under one roof again. I slept like a baby.
We talked about our week and the week to come. W complained about waking up with a crick in her neck. Said it had bothered her a little most of the day. I offered to massage it and she gladly accepted. This is the most intimate we have been in months. At the risk of sounding like a wierdo, I will admit that I got a lot of pleasure (not in "that" way) just feeling the softness of her skin again. After that I went to bed and she slept on the couch.
I had S after school today but W came by later to pick him up. She stayed and talked for an hour which is quite a bit longer than usual.
I'm not all rev'ed up about it. I appreciate the moment for what it is.
I have actualy thought alot lately about getting some legal separtation papers. I bought her out of some property we have when she moved out. I need to get that straightened out legally.
