Well today hasn't been great. My frame of mind is not great. He called earlier to ask me about furniture. Specifically beds for the kids to sleep in while there and that just upset me all over again. I feel like just taking them and running away somewhere. That probably sounds stupid. Every interaction is just a source for more pain and he seems to be going out of his way to make it so. His word choices and phrasing are intentionally shitty. Things he knows are going to upset me. I can't seem to reconcile why if he doesn't care does he do these things. Even more if he does care then why is he doing these things. It's like chasing my tail. To top it off, I am embarrassed once again at least in our little community. I feel like every one is looking at me. She's the woman that can't keep her husband. What's the matter with her? Sorry for venting. I am just very very frustrated.
