MLC or Depression? I need help to survive crisis

[summersnow]

I forgot to mention something.

Last week, I found his memo about how he felt me.
- So much responsibilities and high expectation in work
- tired of taking care of dogs (He decided to adopt them. I guess he felt some guilty not able to care them.)
- sexless (I will say it is not my fault..he was always so tired and wanted to sleep immediately.)
- instead of husband and wife, now is like teacher and student relationship (I probably became "we" person. I thing I depended on him much.)
- tired of my ups/down mood (I am also the type of person who hold my feeling inside so I think he didn't get why I got so angry.)
- need more time for his dream

It is just scratched paper and he, I think, tried to figure out how come he started to question about his life and to seek for new life.

He also told me in last August that I would not change so we could not live together."
How different am I compared to myself a few years ago? He didn't say anything. He thinks "good people will not get angry or yell" so does not tell exactly. Then leave from any dispute.

I am reading a book which explains how important dispute/argument is to vent feeling. Quiet people likely think and conclude how other people think without conversation. He is exactly that kind of person.

I found another paper which explained how men should be. It says:
- Men should be quiet and should not complain.
- Men should bring money to home. etc

I know both of us need to learn how to communicate each other. But right now, how we can set up time and moment we could learn communication skills is my goal.

Since he still believes that kind of philosophy, I have no idea how...