Journalling
Nothing at all from H today.
I haven't followed up my song txt.
I'm annoyed w my Self that I'm back fretting about his silence.
I was losing hope & detaching.
It was as if I was floating on a calm sea & then he went & scimmed some stones across the surface & caused ripples.
I have to look after my needs & the affect him getting his needs met (txtng me) has on me. Txtng really messes w my mind.
Do I need a boundary?
Choices if he txts again
Either not reply
Or txt
- I don't want to txt, you can call me if you want

I don't think that's about control, it's self protection because I feel like my emotions have been played with.

So lessons learned this wk:
I'm not as detached as I thought
I want more than 3 word txts
Random txts mess w my mind
He doesn't know what to do w the ball

ME41 H39
T12 M9
Ilybinilwy 10/2010
H moves out 11/2010
H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011
Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012
Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-)
"Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"