Divorced Thrd #6/Long Road Ahead

[Mrs D]

Hello all - So after I got home Wednesday night, I couldnt sleep. Usually I read a book that I started "Wild at Heart" that my councelor asked me to read - but I decided for some reason that I wanted to read up on "standing for your marriage" on the internet. The first couple of pages I brought up didnt interest me much. The third one hit me. Hard. And I do believe it was the sign that I needed.

The topic on Google was "there is hope for troubled marriages". Even though Im not married any longer, I opened it. It spoke of adultery, and Satan, and how God never wants anyone to divorce,and there were alot of verses. I continued to read until I got to the bottom of the page - and thats where it hit me. It stated that if you are standing for your 2nd marriage that I must lay down my will and seek Gods will. I need to ask him if he wants me to stand for marriage restoration. That Jesus will speak clearly to my heart and my spirit, and that I will know what he wants me to do. Some divorces are stopped on the day it is final, and others are allowed to go through, only to be restored after the divorce. I need to place X and marriage in HIS hands - it is the only way I will know what God wants me to do.

My first thought when I read this was wow. I gave everything to God on the way home Wednesday night, only to bring this page up later. I think THIS was the sign I needed.

Yesteday I spoke to X asking if he was going to the homecoming parade since C was walking with the Boy Scouts. He said that he was thinking about going, and what time did it start? I told him I would have to make sure, I knew C had to be there by 6. He then led the conversation into the accident,and if I had taken the car for estimates yet. Told him that I would call later to let him know what time the parade started.

I called later and left him a VM the parade started at 6. Then called about 15 minutes to since I hadnt heard from him. He thanked me that I called since he had fallen asleep. I told him I was going to park my car in the school parking lot, then just walk down in front of the school to watch the parade if he wanted to meet me.

We had nice converations about my daughter, how well she is doing in school now, her coming home this weekend. He said he was proud of her for turning herself around. We spoke of work, the car again - everything. It was a nice 45 minutes that we were able to share. As the parade was ending, we started walking back to get C in the parking lot. As we were walking, one of my friends BF was taking photos for the local paper. So I stopped to talk to him for a minute, and was surprised that X stayed back with me instead of excusing himself to tell C goodbye and taking off. Mind you, this person that I had stopped to talk to - X never cared much for him because he thought that he had the "hots" for me. So it really took me by surprise that he stayed back. Anyway, I said to the guy - B, you remember S right? They shook hands, and spoke for a couple minutes, I told the friend to say hello to his GF - then we were on our way to get C.

We get back to where C was, he gave him a hug and kiss, told him he loved him and have a good night. All in all I thought it was a good night.

My sweet D will be back in town sometime this morning/afternoon. I am meeting her for lunch and then we are going to hang out until I have to get C. I am so, so excited to see her. Not sure what we have planned for the night, or tomorrow - but then Sunday C and I are headed to Green Bay for the game. I cant tell you all how excited C is. Hes been counting down the days every morning. Its good to see his smile on his beautiful face. Happy Friday all!