aah unbidden - what lovely words you wrote to me smile

they really warm my heart.

but my light didn't come on it's own - i absorbed it from the beautiful people in my life - my family and friends and everyone here. maybe i'm just reflecting it out now smile

i do feel calm and peaceful tonight - but ng has a lot to do with soothing me and i love her for it (thanks ng ((((((( ))))))) )

so i feel very fortunate that even though it has come to what i had not wanted, maybe i can take another step and be open to other things that i may find i want more.

I really feel that i can move on and always be able to say - I did my best, I did more than my best, I did more than I ever thought I was capable of

and that should be enough to start filling my own cup smile

so to all those who are reading this -

start filling your own cup before you try to fill someone else's

(i read that yesterday, and it is an image i wish to keep in my mind and pursue always)

i hope you are well unbidden and things are going well for you

((((( )))))
zig

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"