Hey TVS..things are going pretty well. Still would like to find a job, but in a funny sort of way I think H likes that i'm not working. I am only guessing, but I think he feels more important when he is looking after everyone. His mother never worked, so that was the norm in his family. At the same time, it has always been my decision if I worked or not. He has always supported me that way. Of course, his spending habits haven't changed at all. Still buying his smokes (frightfully expensive here about $25 per pkt), and I do without the luxuries so we can meet our budget. It really doesn't bother me as that is my decision too. He doesn't expect me to do without anything, its just the way I am.
I'm really happy that we are in a pretty good place lately. Some ups and downs, but getting through them. Even so I still think about what I will do if H changes direction again and goes down the path of D. I still make plans in my head about what I will do. I don't know if I will stand next time. Have been working hard on this sitch for over a year now and wonder if its time to get on with my life if he does. Am not sure I could take the hurt for a 5th time. Anyway that's in the future and I'm living one day at a time. I shouldn't be thinking it because I believe you manifest your thoughts.
Am heading off on a girls' weekend tomorrow, so will be doing plenty of GALing. The VALing will have to wait till I get home.
Have a great weekend TVS and keep your PMA up. Speak soon.
