h called me at work yesterday and proposed a financial transaction to me that had previously been a hot topic for me (emotionally) -- money stuff goes right to the core of my need for security and all and it's been made even more confusing by the shifting sands of his being in school full time, etc.
I think I handled his suggestion well and the rest of the day passed in a blur.
I got home and we got in the car for our big date...we decided to stop at my father's first for something..on the way there we started talking about the transaction and $ in general. I was on sensory overload...I was driving and trying to talk about this emotional subject and a couple of times h did the "imaginary brake" thing and ...yikes...
NOTE to self...NO MORE complicated issue conversations in the car!!!!!
But some really good things came out of it...h said "I'm starting to feel more comfortable proposing $ things to you"....a very good disclosure and sign I think!
And he also said "I know that this topic is very emotional for you and I just want to say I know how hard you're working to stay on an even keel and not react emotionally about it. I really appreciate how hard you're working through it."
GULP.
Sage doesn't get to whine anymore that h doesn't give me credit for my hard internal work.
He gets it.
And he appreciates it.
And he tells me that he appreciates it.
Other tremendous positives...we get to dad's house and h decides to come in to say hi to everyone (often he'll just stay in the car for an errand of this type).
AND...sis just moved into a new house and h asked when we were going to see it...mostly I got alone to see my sister.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
