Stop the ride I want to get off

[Tumbling]

Thank you Tori, LaBug and Wendylon for your ongoing encouragement.

H text his usual good morning today.
I wasn't expecting it but I'm bored of it already!
I answered using the same words but I find it pointless.

Musing...
I have done some more reading on MLC and found a particularly good website about the heroe's spouse. I do think that is what he was/is going through. His texts might be just for reassurance that I haven't checked out completely.

I definitely do not want more of the same all the other times we have started hanging out again. I drove it too fast most times due to attachment to an outcome, tho did take it easy Mar-Jun as was living in the now.

If we are to rebuild it will have to be very slow for me, keep my Self detached as I don't trust it will not explode in my face again (I think this would work better for him too)and reduce my abandonment trigger. So do things together - dinner, walks, movies once a week but nothing too physical i.e like starting a new relationship and no staying over so that the sexual tension builds. We talked about that before he went sailing.



So what to do now?

At this rate of 3 word texts the ability to rebuild is nul.
I know I sound impatient as he only broke the silence on Tuesday but I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO CATCH UP ON THE PHONE (no R talk) as it's ages since we saw(12Aug)or talked to(14Aug)each other (and those were first contacts since 10Jul when the conversation resulted in no show on anniversary). Tho there were morning/night texts whilst he was away til the recent pulling away 3Sep.

I am not sure if he is going on business for 3 weeks Sunday or not but if he is that means no coms at all as where he is going there is none.

I guess what I am trying to say is 3 word texts does not build or maintain a relationship in my mind. It's not enough for me. Whilst 3 weeks of silence will be great for GAL and further detaching, it does nothing in any form for the R indeed I wonder if it will make matters worse from my side as I become more take it or leave it/BORED.

I can not think of a way of suggesting catching up on the phone without him feeling pressured.

I am thinking if I get 3 word texts tonight or tomorrow I will not answer to see if he can think of anything else to do with the ball tho I'd rather hint that I miss talking to him and hearing about his day or some such.

What do you think?