Just checking in. I've been travelling a good bit with work over the past week. I've never been in a role to require conferences so this is a change for me. Had one last week on the west coast and now another next week on the east coast.
MC continues. We've had 3 sessions and our next is not until 10/15. W is struggling right now. Not sure what the full weight of things is because she is still not in a place to talk too much with me. However, the results of this weight are not causing the attacks they have before. She just seems to be exhausted and carrying a heavy burden.
She did go back to the doctor this past week which is a good thing. She's still waiting on final confirmation of the job she interviewed for. She is hoping to hear today about a start date.
Me..hmmm. I'm keeping with the patience thing. There a frustrations and temptations that I have to face almost daily. I feel stronger in facing them. They can be draining at times but I'm also learning how to keep my batteries charged. A big part of that is surrounding myself with friends who tell me what I need to hear vs. what I want to hear. An even bigger part is staying connected to God. I'm learning more about how God expects me to live from my heart and its truly amazing how that helps me focus each day.
Its been about 2 years since I've heard my W tell me ILY or received any actual affection from her. I wish it weren't that way but it is. I also realize that what she is or is not able to do, does not define my value. I also realize that I can still provide these things to her without expectation of return. I still hope it will be returned, but there are no timelines. It seems to go back to living from my heart as God describes. It allows love to flow out more deeply in spite of what may be going on around me. Its hard. But its also liberating.
Me:45, W:45 S:16 D:13 M:22, T:25 Bomb: July 2010 Putting finances in order for "D" Continue to live in same home-separate rooms
