BeingMe, Happy belated birthday! Please do not be afraid of the future. God has been sending you pennies and butterflies to remind you that life is precious and delicate and that you need to enjoy every minute of it. Spread your wings and soar!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.