I feel so burned out after the quasi-mixed message from Saturday morning, as i have gotten mixed interpretations as to what she meant about ,
.......... Things Are Going Good For Now And We Should Take Things Slowly..........
And then today's distance and initial coldness during Her visit at our home with our son.
Do i have any chance at all?
I know it may seem like i have only been on here for a relatively short time, but today it is exactly 3 years since i discovered her love letters to her 1st affair partner. She has not shown any demonstrable remorse and lied continuously with no regret showing.
Maybe, i should face the reality that seems to becoming more true to me, that the moral and compassionate wife who had boundaries for our 1st 8 years together no longer exists.
I need knowledgeable advice and support.
Yes, i am still going to focus on work and do better too. GAL must be my own personal priority not only for me, but my son as well.
I will continue reading DR but for now i am still way to emotionally invested and need to detach or more. Be colder, nut not mean.
Ed
Me, 55 W, 36 T, 10 yrs S-9 M, 8 yrs 1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa 2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa W, AA relapse early 2009-Current W moved out 2-16-2012 New OM 5-2012