Before I read your longer email, I'll say this: the pressure is from the belief that I could still be dating and me "mr. right" or take time off to explore where this is going with ExBF
I get that. But everyone has that exact pressure when deciding IF to reconcile or rebuild, etc. IT's "opportunity costs," to put it crassly...
I did want another child. Yikes... that's sort of getting way way ahead of yourself, isn't it? And even if so, must it be with him?
B/C IF the r isn't sound, then how is your position with another child, any better or less vulnerable than it was a year ago?
And I do feel pressure to work on things with him, in a way. I'm just being honest.
I know that doesn't make sense, no one will agree with that, I should just forget it. But, here's the thing - It's true for me. And I'm being honest.
So maybe it's not as much pressure as I imagined.
So can you say WHY do you want to be with THIS man?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016