An Exercise For Forgiveness

[sage]

Hey Mooka and Pam! thanks for the positive reinforcement on my positives!

Just got back from breakfast with h (positive! his idea!)..I love starting the day hanging out with him...it's 30 minutes of dedicated "us" time...cool.

Yesterday was a whirlwind day...I'm a bit behind at both work and school (UGH!) so I'm freaking out a bit...my own fault! BUT, had some great phone calls and emails from h (+) and he went out to lunch with me, too! (+)

Last night I went out with my brother (14). He's so smart and cute and funny...unfortunately his in the throes of "why don't the girls like me" and it breaks my heart! I'm reminded of how painful all that time was...and how my mom's not so helpful reaction was "none of this will matter in 10 years" which, while ultimately true, did nothing to ease the pain! Anyway...we had a GREAT time and then h met us for a movie! My brother totally idolizes h...he's more than a little in awe of him.

I thought my Cainercast was particularly pertinent today...I've been struggling with forgiveness stuff of late ... not just h but with a bunch of folks...

Pots love to call kettles black. Cheats love to question other people's integrity. Liars accuse their companions of twisting the truth. Bullies are usually victims, and often, in a somewhat less obvious way, in some other area of life, the reverse applies. All I am trying to say here, is that lines of distinction are not always as clear-cut as we might wish them to be. What lesson might a current problem be somehow trying to oblige you to learn? Saturn, in making you conscious of an injustice, is really trying to reflect your own tendency to be too harsh at times.

I think the "forgiveness exercise" clearly tackles this concept, too...might be time soon for me to pull out the pen and take note of how I judge others for behaviors that I have done myself...

Here's to a happy, non-beating-myself-up day!!!

Sage