thinking on new life w/o X

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It's been a long time since I posted. I am busy w/New Guy and kids and had this strange feeling this week, like, wow, how did I get here? A lot of change is in the wind and I see so much happening right now.

Every now and then I have a pang for the life that I used to have w/X--well, the good parts, from the old days. I don't miss the bad parts from the more recent times. But now I have new responsibilities, new love, new ideas about what I want. New Guy has impressed me with his kindness and I realized what it means to be able to count on someone.

And so what happens to the MLCer? Mine is broke and living alone while he attempts to tend to GF#2, who is not likely to live long. He gave me such a strange look the other day when I dropped off DD--jealousy, regret....I don't know what. Does he have regrets? I don't know. I doubt I'll ever know.

The original OW has long since danced off into the sunset, having gotten the professional boost she wanted from X, and is busy with her bragging little ways.

Time has flown since I began posting here. DD was a baby. She doesn't remember a time when X and I were ever together, I realized. The sweet little baby things are being replaced with school age things...and I was there for all of those things. I am proud of that. I am glad that I focused on DD and made us a good life together.

I do believe this: for people who wonder if they are doing the right thing by standing: you are. You will be able to say you gave it 100% and know you did your best, regardless of the outcome.