"Anyway, I like that i am no longer as blindly hopeful with these interactions as I would have been 6 months ago. I feel much more grounded in reality. At least I hope i am!

And i also realized that I am going to be ok. If H proceeds with the D, which for all intents and purposes he plans on doing, i am not going to change. I am not going to go back to being angry, bitter and scared. I may not like it, i may not want it and i may not believe in it, but i will be ok."

this is huge growth! if someone had told you that you would feel this way those 6 months ago, would you have believed them?

i like to think everything is happening as it should. we are put on this earth (my opinion) to learn our lessons. they aren't always easy (in fact, they're friggin' HARD) but we are better people because of them and we treat people better because of them.

hope you are getting the sleep you need.

((()))

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing