best and worse thing to ever go through

[eyesopen]

I think it may be time to prepare for the storm. W seems to be very cold to me more often than not lately. I know it is my perception, but I would actually welcome some blaming and criticism towards me. Might give me a chance to figure out some 180's that I can work on. Then again it could be that having me act as if I am fine without her is doing a number on her. Anyway I am feeling good about the direction I am heading in. I did get teary eyed putting the kids to bed last night, but it wasn't for the W. I hope someday she will earn my tears again.