Lapoo, your feelings are normal. I woke up EVERY DAY for 6 months thinking I wanted to end my M bc I couldn't trust my H again. Then, a shift happened. He had stopped lying, and his family started showing more support. But then it was too late for him, and he changed his mind about his committment.
Anyway, have you thought about exchanging letters with your H? If talking doesn't work, maybe a letter will do? Think about it. I'll let you know if I think of anything else.
