It's a new morning with that old, familiar feeling. I'm sure most of you know the one I'm talking about... That renewed sense of emptiness after a conversation with the WAS. I guess the good news there is I'm getting used to it... Although that doesn't make it sting any less.

Now that I've had the chance to sleep on the conversation (and am one day closer to seeing W again) a few things are sticking in my mind from that conversation:

-I wonder what changed to have her go from not wanting me in the house at all to asking me to help her for an hour or two on Friday night "As long as it doesn't interrupt your plans".

-The whole "I can't get everything I want... Hell I can't get anything I want... Well I should have stuck with the first statement" line is still fascinating to me. She was saying this after telling me how hard it would be to see the puppy, but I feel it may have had a greater connotation...

-Kinda stings that she's so heartbroken about seeing the puppy, but no big deal seeing me

-Her disapproval of her best friend trying to work on her marriage is worrisome... Although perhaps its a case of misery likes company, it could very well be a "Look how happy I am now, don't go back to misery..." Yes Yes, I know this is heavy mind reading here...

So for today, I'll focus on keeping a PMA, try to focus on the good things that happened during last night's talk, and get ready to go see my IC tonight. Just in time!